idle vs routine

idle vs routine

first spring day today 
why don’t you go idle ?


allowing space 







growing within

being still







that happens








inner and outer reality mirror each other 

your inner weather (moods, state of body-heart-mind) alters your vision of reality
like when you are worried and our inner movie feeds any worst case scenario you can think of 
like when you are short fused, due to rubbing irritation, internalised anger or else, and anything vaguely resembling fire or the colour red triggers you
like when you are stuck and the entire world should be put on hold, because you can’t move on


perception is projection, by default

even when you are completely present and focused, what you perceive of reality is a projection of your inner world

you see what you expect to see, consciously or not
like when you read reality through your favourite grid and see an evidence or bad omen in everything

you don’t get a full picture, but only what you are aware of
like when you overlook big chunks of reality, which don’t fit in your box or could question it

your vision goes through the funnel of your limiting belief system, which shrinks and colours anything you get in touch with
like when based on your own feelings, you assume what someone else is going through must be tough


living in the now is not enough

it doesn’t stop you from projecting your reality into your world, unless you take off your sunglasses, aka the layers of stuff that darken your perception

living in the now doesn’t save you the trouble of sorting out your own issues, on the contrary, the necessity of inner work becomes so obvious

as long as you hold on to your projections (remaining attachment to old paradigm)
your perception is altered
your understanding is programmed
your creation is fake


what if we faced reality through void and stillness ?

practically, nothing,    n.o.t.h.i.n.g                           pure awareness and consciousness
like the empty space within and in-between things where anything is possible

in a human shape we are not pure undefined all encompassing consciousness, we are defined and equipped specifically for the tasks at hand, instead


pure awareness and consciousness, then

this quality and this level allow us to touch pure consciousness (within and around), letting our instrument resonate with it and express itself in its unique way




lift the veil !

lift the veil !

great transformation

big changes happen in small steps, some of them hardly noticeable
shaking, a crack                    or is it the other way around ?
a crack, shaking
yet shapes tend to perpetuate themselves and regenerate
again and again

an inner urge more and more disruptive
frictions, tensions, frustrations           burst !
release, things settle down, dead calm or not, maturation           patience, resilience
until what cannot continue gives in, breakup


twilight, for a long time


some light at last, zero point !

an impulse, light and joyful, obvious
another phase begins, momentum
nomadic life, inconsistant, following the wind, without a goal or destination
completely open, undefined


some more light, there it is !

drop-off point, a whole other life, complete reboot, change of plane
start over
infinite possibilities
here now, every moment


that’s how Marcus and I have split up, I left my paradise in Jouanvins, Ardèche, and after a few months of wanderings around the world, I have now settled in Paris, at the Butte aux Cailles

my new address is at 29 rue de l’Espérance, 75013 Paris, France
espérance means hope, aptly named, isn’t ?



looking up at the sky

looking up at the sky

… and stars in your eyes

an insistent inner demand, as we continue to unwrap the tremendous package received on 21 December at the winter solstice

access the bigger picture
embrace further
until you can feel great peace

be totally still in the now
truly there
and feel the joy


happy new year 2019 !



rest of the grey matter

rest of the grey matter


you can allow your grey matter to relax, give it a chance to let go
put it to complete rest
the benefit will be immediate 

rather than the mind, the matter of the brain itself can become loose

mental activity is put on hold, of course
alertness and inner awareness as well

with the grey matter, your entire body can rest and reset
it’s such a treat !



listening to the recording won’t be difficult
but letting physical stillness settle down may be more of a challenge
sometimes you will catch yourself daydreaming, like we do on a beach



sounds of the waves, to be listened to again and again






of unity and wholeness
you leave nothing aside
you remove nothing

you take it all instead, you are all that

you dare being different

without complying or bending
you stand there
you let your essence and the unspeakable
your vulnerability
your power
shine through







early this morning, in the oblique light of the first sun rays I could feel
the peaceful enthusiasm of the particles in the unified field of consciousnsss
random-non random mouvements
singular and united

enthusiasm, literally in presence of God, inspired by God, then ONE and WHOLE

outburst of joy, infinite gratitude
galvanised !



Alice and the doors

Alice and the doors

welcome in wonderland !

Alice stands in a circular antechamber with many doors, there are doors all around her, and she wonders

          which one shall I open ?
          how do I know that it is the right one for me ?

depending on her mood and state of mind she may
hang out there for days on end and go on saying

           if I do this, it will result in that… and inevitably cause that … which will …
           but I can’t possibly not do it, because if I don’t, it will …

covering the open field of possibilities in layers of dust, called projections, patterns, habits and beliefs  which she perpetuates out of loyalty to ordinary programming

alternatively she may open a door randomly and jump into anything, only to end the torment of having to make that crucial and seemingly final choice and after short lived relief feel unsure again and rely on the divine providence or the universe to deliver against all odds what she hasn’t really opted for

or else she could just gaze or procrastinate or meditate and wait until something happens, which she will deliberately interpret as a clear sign that the universe wants (or doesn’t want) her to experience something

in reality, when Alice stands in the antechamber she can open any door at all, even randomly, all she needs to do is make up her mind
and each time she opens a door and crosses the threshold, an entire world pops open out of the blue, packed with wonders and countless possibilities

as she walks in, she goes on an adventure in this open space and if it is not fun or if it doesn’t suit her, she can change her mind any moment and end the game immediately

all she needs to do then is return to the antechamber
and with the door closing the world that had manifested will collapse instantly and she is back to the realm of pure potential, symbolised by the many doors

this is 5D magic!

all doors take Alice to her Self, no matter which route she takes, every single situation, event or encounter is a face to face with herself, whether she is aware of it or not

the evolutionary journey is hers, it is up to her to play the games she likes and drop those the doesn’t likeat any point in time and space, she can take another route, start anew, make other choices, again and again
she can even embark on a complex journey with several doors opening and intricately intertwined stories evolving simultaneously (that’s what she does most of the time)

the antechamber is her core, the hub of her multi-dimensional inter-galactic being
she can always come back to that neutral space and regroup before going out on one or more journeys

she gets lost  and stuck sometimes though
it happens when she can’t help anticipating what she will discover
or when she tries to play other people’s games or to please them

then the realm of infinite possibilities gets limited to a single tunnel ending with(out) a dot of light
the pain caused by shrinking her vision is hardly bearable, all her bodies suffer indescribable stress and if she ignores the signals she may fall ill or even die

she does ignore them occasionally, when she numbs herself to avoid feeling the pain and keeps going on loops like a hamster in a wheel
the way out is to choose to get out of the trap (it won’t happen on its own !)


so to recap

as long as Alice makes one of more choices, she is safe, nothing can go wrong and she can’t get things wrong. Every cell of her body holds the imprint of her Self and keeps reminding her of it. The better she can feel her body and intuit, the easier the journey

what really matters is that she indulges in the evidently contradictory creative chaos of adventures which will allow her to fully realise who she is. There is no set plan nor compulsory steps to take, her unique path of evolution is accomplished when she has become ALICE  !

there are as many antechambers as human beings, they are all unique and interconnected with one another
each time somebody opens a door and goes on an adventure it activates the energy field of those potentially or actually engaged in similar games. Sometimes it invites joyful emulation and sharing sparkling light, other times it can trigger defence and creates dark spots of greater density in the areas that are closing

each one of us is currently a smaller version of him/herself in the process of becoming SELF

although choices, games and journeys are ours, we have set appointments (karmic contracts) with other people who are involved in their own adventures 
most  games are more fun when played together and since we keep playing our own games in parallel , shared games give us a chance to see ourselves in someone else’s mirror

it’s not about making the right choice, there is no such thing, choices as such are neutral (i.e. neither good nor bad), it’s about having the gut to engage with reality and find out what kind off experience we would like to have on Earth



resolutions or resolution ?

resolutions or resolution ?

our choice determines our path of evolution


news year’s resolutions
on the 1st of January many of us have made resolutions for 2018. Some of us will struggle with them and won’t keep them and others will be proud of ourselves for having the will power to keep them 

new year’s resolutions are born from the previous year’s performance and/or our expectations for the year to come. Usually they consist in creating loops of
strategic thinking

  • goal and targets setting
  • planning
  • to do lists
  • assessments

and so on

our resolutions are likely to be about sorting out issues, improving ourselves, stepping forward towards the ever elusive mirage of a perfect everything, which in this context is an illusion leading to predictable and recurring disillusions

in reality our resolutions are projections into the world (inner and outer) of our ego’s appreciation of ourselves and even the most open-hearted intentions are based on conditionings
it is most serious !


investing in conditionings 
our mindset is primarily defined by imprints from our culture, education, family, surroundings, activities, etc. Many of those are unconscious conditionings we give value to by investing energy in them. The trouble is that they cover and mask our unique personal abilities, capacities and potential. They also determine our spiritual, mental, emotional and physical choices, preferences, habits, motivations,  etc.

  • what motivations underly our resolutions ? 

probably to be good, do better, succeed… support, heal, serve … enjoy health, happiness, balance … to name a few

  • what stereotypes dictate them?
  • what values and standards does our belief system set for these resolutions ? 
  • are they really ours ?

we are perfect as we are, but we are limited by all that prevents us from being ourselves
our belief system plays a central part in this, by restricting who we are and how we can change and evolve



on dissolving resolutions 
all resolutions we have ever made were based on a perceived lack or imperfection of Self. Almost fatally they made us play the duality game:  good and bad, less and more, you and me, etc. In the mirror of projected reality, nothing will ever be good enough, we experience this as yoyo movement

  • either we push ourselves and try harder, to ensure that we are strong and on top of things 
  • or we give up and blame ourselves for being incapable or lazy and feel low and discouraged

there is no solution to antagonism in duality, unfortunately, and we will never connect with our Self that way!

instead of trying hard and failing or faking it, with the unavoidable increase of self-doubt, self-unworthiness and/or self-cheating

  • how about deliberately dropping the resolutions made recently now ?

  • rather than sugarcoating our inner mess with good resolutions, why don’t we let them dissolve like sugar in water?


panoramic vision
what we could do instead, is gain enough altitude and depth to get a 360° panoramic view of where we are at here and now and

                                                                                         tune in





                                                                                 again and again

emerges from
the eternal stillness
of the innermost


this implies facing ourselves and our wounds and for each of them feeling the pain until it dissolves
this is a very scary thing to do, obviously, and usually what puts us off

yet it is a sure way we can value, honour and own who we are
it takes focus, awareness and being determined to transform what causes suffering, but it pays off !


resolutions vs revolution
only by challenging our belief system radically, do we have a chance to get out of the box

how ?

we genuinely and spontaneously embrace and believe in what resonates with who we truly are. It is an immediate, straightforward and obvious response that gives us joy, wellbeing and happiness
this is a sure gauge for questioning beliefs, so we know whether or not we agree with them and so we can set ourselves free by dropping those we can’t keep and honour

unconscious : certain beliefs we adopted mimetically, we are not very aware of them
outdated : we did invest in some beliefs at some point, but no longer do now
biased : we put up with other ones, although we never really engaged in them
abusive : some were imposed on us and we wouldn’t/couldn’t reject them openly

in any case we got trapped in them


resolution is evolution
our challenge is to have the courage to tackle our personal issues (self-worth, self-esteem, self-love…) and resolve them. They commonly take any form of self-abuse and affect any part of our being
facing ourselves takes time and requires commitment and dedication, but it is a really freeing experience

let 2018 be our moment of truth and the year during which false beliefs dissolve! We don’t need to play the resolution game anymore and invest in an outdated belief system which perpetuates self-sabotage (= Self denial)

we are perfect, our destiny is perfect, life is perfect and the world is perfect as they are. What needs perfecting instead is your inner connection with ourselves, so we can acknowledge our inner wounds, transform our life experience and keep evolving indefinitely. That’s how we can best impact on the world 


you have free will, it’s up to you !



immense love

immense love



enveloping      sweet                  passionate     patient    

     protective      unfathomable     demanding      forgiving      burning    

      multiple      flawless      precious      generous     cherished      enriching      blind  

tolerant      placid      grateful      betrayed       life saving      adored     unique

comforting     rejected     enabling     revealing     nurturing     attentive   

     overflowing     vast     turbulent    

radiant       immoderate    





new year’s (r)evolution 
let’s begin with unconditional love
this sets the bar high enough !

feel it in your heart
and express it with your own words

unconditional love is all encompassing
ALL is ONE, without any distinction or exclusion
and everything keeps transforming and evolving all the time
with amazing fluidity

to Maryse



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